Gotta love pain….. Or maybe not.
This last couple of weeks I’ve been in constant pain. At least I have while awake! Almost to the point when I just want to sleep just to not be in pain
This is mostly my legs which ache something chronic (I guess literally!) And also tender to the touch. Feet that hurt when they touch the floor (very convenient). If I sit with my feet flat on the floor then my heels and balls of my feet hurt. It’s like a deep within the bones ache. If I stretch my legs out in front of me it’s my heels that hurt. I want to put my legs up! That doesn’t work though it seems…. Just done that and now the backs of my legs hurt more instead. Seems I can choose which part of my legs or feet are in most pain. How nice!
The worst part of it though is that I know it’s going to be too easy to overdo it today when we go out. While my wife is really understanding and patient I just don’t think she really understands the extent of the issues sometimes which I totally get and am not blaming her for. How can I expect someone to totally get that just normal stuff is too much of a challenge now?
Yesterday we went for a walk and we only went for a mile down the road and then turned back. I said that it was more of a struggle back as it was uphill and she responded with, “it’s not too steep”. For most people definitely true, but for me it was at the outside edge of what I could manage. It’s hard for people to understand that which they don’t experience and I think with the absolute best will in the world they rarely do.
So today I will do my best to not ruin her day out and to enjoy it myself too but will be constantly thinking about making sure I don’t overdo it and make myself bedridden for the next couple days. This is what it’s like now though. Not taking things for granted and over planning everything.
