Dear Diary: 09 May 2022

Tired!

Yes, I am always tired but yesterday I went to bed early and slept a long time and STILL tired.

Yesterday in fact I spent most of the day in bed. Sunday meeting at 1:30pm was from bed too, and hardly ate anything all day due to some stomach issues. Eventually I settled down to sleep around 9pm because my brain stopped working, I couldn’t read or watch anything – or even listen to music anymore. I did wake up several times during the night due to bladder issues and noted that my legs were in pain still but went back to sleep quickly until I finally work up “properly” at 7am.

Yet I am still tired today.

Now at the end of the workday (nearly) my brain has started to shut down for the day again. Writing this is a challenge and I am having to re-read and re-write everything a few times.

I am approaching the “someone opened a tap and let all my energy out” situation now – but I am still going to try and go out for a short walk in a little while as I want to try and keep as active as I can and a short walk in Lister Park 3 times or so a week SHOULD be easy to do. I am hoping that this doesn’t cause me to pay for it later – but will have to assess this after. If it does, then “go for a walk when already fatigued” will be marked as a “do not do” for future.

My legs don’t hurt too much but my heels were hurting when I put weight on them earlier – so will have to see how they are when we go for a walk. I DEFINATELY don’t want a Subway when we go for that walk. We often go into Subway and get sarnies, but I have something I need to eat today anyway – so having a Subway too will mean either something is wasted – or I eat too much and that makes me feel worse. If we do go there – it will be the girls only who have Subway sarnies.

I am currently fighting this treacle that my mind is wading through. It is very hard to keep on track and very easy to end up just staring into space blankly. I think another early night would be a good idea but need to eat early for that.